meow :3

First and foremost, I have to admit that this year’s christmas doesn’t feel christmassy at all. And it’s kind of weird. It’s cold alright and that’s a plus point. haha. I started wondering if this feelings are brought about the ‘me-getting-older’ fact or whatever. But it’s not just me who doesn’t feel the christmas. With everything that happened (including sendong). Another factor is the person who just came into my life and introduced too many emotions and it’s kind of fun because it’s new but it’s making me wonder whether I made the right decision, sometimes gets me pissed, exasperated and exhausted. argh! 

This christmas even made me want to belong. I don’t exactly know what that meant, but I know what it feels like so that’s enough for now. hahaha

Makes me want to go back to my complicated-lonely-seemingly-pointless-but-it’s-not-coz-it’s-promising life. hehe and makes me want to go back to the University. waaaaa. BUt no, not now though, I’m getting ready to go back to school maybe a couple of years from now. :)

And it seems that I have no work waiting for me. It’s making me sad since I don’t know when will be starting sa work ba. haaiz

My even got mad at me yesterday since according to her I keep on neglecting what she tells me all that and that she’s starting to accept the fact that sometime in the near future I’ll be living by myself already. She actually cried and I don’y know what to say and feel about that, All i know is that if I’m neglecting everything she tells me my life would have been sinking in shit now, but it’s not ,get it? it’s not going to happen I won’t let it happen. 

Happy and excited. I’m feeling those emotions since I’m just starting another phase in my life. I’m at the bottom of the career ladder right at the mo but I’m all excited and enthusiastic to start facing challenges meeting new people and having new experiences as I gradually climb my way up :) hehehe 

I’m excited to live my life from this point up to where I wanted to be :)

“Sana …..” 

hahaha